Normal service resumed

Emotional crisis over. That didn't take long, did it?

So, the scariest thing about your possibly bestest friend, 'not having to turn up to social events alone' partner and cinema-going chum finding out that you may possibly have feelings that are deeper than just friendship [breathe] is that you might just have lost something very important indeed.

That's what upset me the most. It wasn't finding out that he didn't feel the same way (which didn't entirely surprise me), but that he didn't reply to the 'breaking the ice' e-mail I sent after the situation came to light. The fear that things would never be the same again was what drove me to my bed and to seek solace from the gay cowboy love story.

But today I got the reply, and it was just fine and everything is just fine - except for the fact that Hotmail seems to think my plea from the heart to put this behind us and maybe be a bit more honest with each other in future should go in the 'junk mail' folder! Pah!

Thank you for your kind words and thoughts during this self-indulgent time.

End of badly-written post...

P.S. Other things that cheered me up today were: a visit from a colleague's nearly 1-year old little girl with the dirtiest laugh you've ever heard; hot chocolate; going to the doctors and not being told off for anything; changing my desktop picture to this...